Penang , here i come!!!

Alasssssssssss.........time to fly. Just a few more hours and i will be resting on my cozy lumpy Penang made bed.. :)) Wish you guys happy chinese OX year!!! see ya ..



- sleep deprived IVY-

-Emo remarks -

Nothing much to say apart from my coming psychiatric exams due this coming thurs. I am manically staying up late trying to study (but failed as a result from poor concentration and attention) with the next morning wake-up depressive mood going to school. Psychomotor agitation and irritability commenced throughout the day leaving me with my energy drained out resulting in a blunted affect and mutism at the end of the day. I hate to say this but my hallucination of CNY celebration and delusion of receiving many angpow $$$ (able to grab 10 MNG clothes) is obessively occupying my preception and thoughts. My compulsive action of enjoying (even tho exam is coming) is way out of control . The only therapy i badly need is a temporary abstinence from an exam state. ... I longed for my holidays ... :(


- emo IVY in a manic state-

GIRL's DILEMMA

Have u ever encounter when an up most important event is approaching, you ran out of ideas on what to wear for the event, how to manipulate ur hair and how to look good and young... This is D fickle minded problem that i alwiz encounter ... which alwiz result in undesired outcome from it...

Well, currently after my hectic exam and post-exam stress... i turn myself to this problem --> preparation for chinese new year celebration. The first thing that popped into my mind was how would my hair be like??? Currently i have straight brownish dull-looking shoulder length hair which coupled with a thin , alopecic looking fringe that annoyed both my visual fields. So.. any great touch up ideas??? I was hoping to get my hair dyed or curl.. but my hair is too short for that account especially the curling thingy... so i guess a simple hair trim will do.. but wait.. what hair style now.. i've tried rihanna's short bob style, cleopetra wanna-be style, .. and now wat... britney's shaving bald style eh??? No way!!! since i am left with no ideas... let the stylist decide!!!

Second issue here is bout clothes clothes clothes.. what shud i wear for CNY??? a bright red sexy curve cheongsam...??? i wish Kuching sold more cheongsams which fits me... to no avail.. i fail to find the Miss Right after so many years on the road... anyway... i leave my choice of clothes to the MNG and Padini department since they are having tremendous earthquake sales now...

oh well.. really looking forward for this coming CNY. but then another part of me is lurking around the post-exam stress which i fear might spoilt the CNY mood.. well.. before i forget i like to wish all my frens a happy chinese "cow" year!!! Mooooooo..... enjoy ur hols!!!

-ivy- the grumpy lame girl as alwiz :)

PRE-RESOLUTION CONFESSION

Aiks.. a bit too late to welcome the year 2009 in my blog. Its already the 8th day of this new year. Sorry guys.. coz i was having my exam. Just finished today- as usual postexam syndrome : )

In order to welcome this brand new year, i would just like to share some recollection of events or confession of problems that occur last year in my life.

Life was pretty smooth in the year of rat except for some unforeseen events :

1.celebrated my 6th bbday
- For the first time with my darl and my coursemates.

2. went to 4 different posting rotations
- traveled to two places in Sarawak for my postings

3. went to Taiwan for my elective postings


4. procrastination getting worse
- every time in a last minute preparation for exam

5. not growing fatter
- some people say i am too thin.. i shud get fat this year!!!

6. looking old (for sure) and mature (doubt it :)

7. bilateral round big swollen black eye bags
- secondary to sleeping very late at night
8. cut my hair short
- after such a long time ...since primary school

9. memory getting lousier
- pre-senile dementia i guess...

10. addicted to internet / tvb series

Oh well.. the list keep coming when i recollected my thoughts. Anyway.. this is important as one hope to change to the better.

This year resolutions are:

1. TO STOP PROCRASTINATION
2. TO STOP PROCRASTINATION
3. TO STOP PROCRASTINATION

hehe.. sounded like a drug addict or alcohol dependency problem.

For this year, the main resolution to hope for is to stop procrastination. Its time for me to learn from this exam, and turn into a big fresh greenly leaf. I would organized myself well and not let external factors or stimuli to impair my determination.

ultimately is to improve my personality and be confident with myself.

This new year celebration was not a memorable one as i had to spend it with some wise men , namely ; Davidson, Talley, McCleod and etc. (basically with my dear medical books as i will be having my exam)


All in all.. time flies really fast and hereby, wish u guys a happy belated 2009 new year.

Hopefully time goes, life grows!

- Ivy lim-

-SERENDIPITY -

i just wonder why i din come across such beautiful word.. i came to know this meaningful word only from one of tvb latest hot drama 'gem of life'. And i realized my life is exactly potrayed by just one word S-E-R-E-N-D-I-P-I-T-Y. What it exactly means is that the ability to make happy discoveries by accident. The word was coined by Horace Walpole 1754, after the fairy tale ‘The Three Princes of Serendip’. Serendip is an archaic name for Sri Lanka.

By just admiring the meaning of the word, my consciousness faded into my past, rewinding every important agenda that happens in my life and began to discover the beautyof my life that was portrayed by this divine word i shall say.

Lets just take an example, before coming to the land of hornbills, I never could have imagine that i would step foot on the east of Malaysia. To sound worse, i did not know the existance of Kuching town, and i tot it was all jungle , rivers and CROCODILES in Sarawak. Anyway, when i landed on this place, i found many happy surprises that are now part and parcel of my life
1. my darl
2. my wonderful housemates
3. my helpful coursemates
4. Kuching cleanliness and safety (relatively to penang of course)
5. Many green trees around (seldom to see in pg)
6. Clear blue sky with fluffy clouds during the evening
7. Got my old troublesome "junk" for a cheap price
8. Got a nice house to stay
9. Got my first taste of Sarawakians' proud product "Kolo mee"
10. ................ the list keeps going..

So u see... life is really unpredictable. No doubt one will not alwiz stumble upon happy discoveries... but if u do... make sure u understand the meaning of it.. and appreciate the things that u discover...

well.. the meaning is yet for u to appreciate!... i am so tired.. I actually continued this piece of writing one month apart. Anyway i hope u guys understand what i mean.. ; )

tata

-ivy-

Love story for a vampire?? hmm.. sounds... sexy yea?? i've watched d trailer and comments from other frens who watched the movie.. some initially hated it , began to like it.. and some like it , began to like it even more.. hmm.. sounded like the kinda movie a gal wish to watch ... but then again.. will this movie satisfy my logical brain that i used it daily to count my maths and understand my pathophysiology.. Oh well.. i think i shall give it a try this weekend.. just to see how can a 106 year old vampire fall in -love... it that so lame.. =)

-ivylim-

such a lousy and short hols.. =( .. din go ward for the past .... 3 days.. sigh... guilty again.. but at least stayed home to read my books... OH my CWU.. lame lame lame... tomorrow need go hunting for case then!!! with my hectic clinic in the afternoon... i wonder time will allow me to... lame lame lame ... bye!

-ivy . d lame gal -

Hi.. procastinated the whole Sat.. sigh.. the guilt feeling slowly 'budded' out from my mind.. it slowly tinged my feeling turning it into the fear of failing ... i need to do something now.. STOP PROCASTINATING!!! time to open ur books , JEAN! but first need to entertaint my brain to a resting state ---- go for a nap first *_* ... by all means.. i need to finish wat i suppose to read.. TODAY!!! rughhhh....

-ivylim-

Today is a Saturday morning. What am i doing now.. blogging?? Shud i be in bed , continuing me beauty sleep?? As a matter of fact, i was woken up by the landlord of my house who alwiz comes eagerly each month to collect our rent. When each month falls in, it would mean sacrificing my shopping allowance, which mean sacrificing my beloved blouse & shoes!!! - just nozzing around -

anyway, i feel terrible today. My procastinating side of me is trying to pull me back into the "dangerous" hole. The hole where is filled with laziness, care-free life and sleepy syndromes. How i wish i could close the hole for this 6 months until my final ends. Why am i so weak in overcoming the temptation of enjoyment?? I've already abandon my scheduled chapters to study, as usual. How sad, how bad could it be (since medicine posting is such a stressful and vast field to master), how mad am i.. I just wish, someone who just crack open my head and pull off the limbic system ( is that responsible for feelings?? .. thrown my neuroanatomy into the drain de ..Arghh.. )..

Oh jean.. u alwiz complained so much.. i guess this is me... the grumpy old grandma , Jean. What can i do to stop procastinating.. i dun wan to end up regretting when the exam is around the corner. I love medicine so much.. but interest ain't such a strong magnet to pull me out from the "euphoric" hole ; the hole where i shud say all lazy-bumps are lying comfortably.

Argg.. get something to work out.. mayb some shopping will do?? *_*

- ivy lim-

Sitting on my studying table, looking at the thick pages of the obstetric textbook that i need to cover, my determination to read was swapped away instantly. What interest me more was my beloved cozy lumpy bed. Why does this happen everynight... why are my squeeky eye felt so tired each nite.. was it bcoz of my lighting in my room.. or was my interest in studying had swayed away ever since next week will b the start of my hols. I hav no idea. I wanted to read, to finish off my procastinated assigned chapters .. but each day .. every excuse was entertained.

To avoid all this fuzz and guilt , i turn myself to the internet. Hoping to gain the latest issue or news, i ended up myself being addicted to the tvb drama , Moonlight resonance. Now as a an avid addict fan, i was troubled each night by each episode endings - hoping to know the story for the next episode. But honestly, tvb had managed to capture the heart of the audience creatively and i admire them for that.

well.. life's just so dynamically beautiful. Ever since i came to fifth year, i began to see the light of a doctor. Began to graps the principles of life or precisely, a doctor's life. Its dedication and love towards the responsibility. I wonder if i can ever fully own those values in future.. and react appropriately is something i learn which is very useful.

For now, there are a lot of things that i would love to do , but unable to make it happen. I feel that i am lost, and do not know where to start from. i guess i am still playing the game of life. time will tell.. what shud happen and why...

i still love life to the max!!! :) esp hols just around the corner... and me being a procastinator..

-ivylim-

A New Beginning!

Everyone is blogging nowadays. Wow! and i am just a late comer huh? =) anyhow. I really don't have the determination to jot down every tiny little bits of info everyday. Sorry. But i will try tho.. wat ever big changes in my life i definately would live a footpint here.. right here at my only blogger. Ooops.. actually i hav more then one blog but all r not in an active state ..mind me keke.. =)

To start off, i'm going back this sunday. Yea. its already over.. my hols.. how sad! just a week.. and PUP! its gone like a wind. So fast and furious! Argghh.. i hate when its time to pack my bag and shoo shoo.. back to the place i dread the most ( i dun hate that much.. but as compared to my hometown.. of course its so dreadful ).. However one thing that keep me going.. is the knowledge that i wan to acquire.. i wan to be knowledgable.. i wan to be a knowledgeable doctor.. i wan to know everything.. but hey... i'm quite lazy! thats the problem.. sigh! everything does not seem to run so smoothy.. but anyhow.. just enjoy the process.. the outcome --> never think about it! Life's full of surprises.. u may stumble upon a bad surprise.. but hey! like i say nothing is smooth going.. just know how to overcome it. thats it!.. but as long as u enjoy doing it and u do it correctly.. u sure to get a good surprise *@^

okie.. time to sleep.. sleeping rather early this few days.. to catch up my beauty sleep i guess..hehe..time to bed! adiaus!

love,
ivy lim