Persona of MY life

2009-07-25T09:44:00.000-07:00

HI!!

sorry for the late updates... anyway i will not be using this blog anymore.. here is my new blog. Just transfer everything to wordpress! see ya there
http://www.metamorph0sis.wordpress.com

Luv,
Ivy

2009-05-14T10:26:00.000-07:00

THE JUGDEMENT DAY....

The day has finally set in,

My heart tumbled as each second passes,

Agitated butterfly rumbling in my stomach,

My frown face and sweaty palms protrayed,

Took each deep breath with a hesistation,

The direction of my life is to be determined today...

When i entered the hall,

My gaze were frozen,

And my mind replaying all those exam moments,

I must say i did not know how i fare,

I did not perform extremely good ,

nor did i did it badly,

I just do not know,

I fear for the unexpected...

The time has arrived,

the annoucement of results,

My heart started squeezing every chamber of blood into my brain,

I could feel the pulsation everywhere,

And million of sweat glands actively profuse its content out,

I just hope my name would be called..

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Finally ..

After 5 years of struggling to achieve the reason to be here,

I manage to make my parents proud,

I've MADE IT!!!

(can u spot my post-exam nerdy haggard face??)

Thanx to my parents,

My bro and sis,

My relatives,

My bf,

My housemates,

My friends,

My lecturers,

All people that had leave a deep footprint on me..

Thank you..

Never would be here without you..

Anyway.. here i am busy with application, cleaning my room and preparing appreaciation dinner (if got things to do :)

*this post may be dramatic but i sincerely hope to express every single moment which i dread to be in again...

ANyway here are a few pics... more to come!

Us with external examiners and our lecturers..

Thank you teachers!

Okie, its time for me to miggle around with my pleasure time...

after i settle my stuff in kuching..

Penang here i come!!!

-IVY on cloud nine-

2009-04-27T02:04:00.000-07:00

- 6 MORE DAYS!-

AWWWWHHHH...

6 more days .... i hope i can finish :(

my memory is so lousy nowadays!!!

HELP ! HELP !

back to my books for now..

-demented IVY-

2009-04-20T04:40:00.000-07:00

- Clock's ticking, time's running out!-

How ? Why? What have i been doing for the past one week of my study leave... oh gosh! I dun wan to even mention how i spent NOT studying EFFICIENTLY most of the time :( .. anyway.. this two weeks is a crucial time for me to buck up what i left behind for the past 5 years of my medical studying life... I need to let it to consolidate into one piece of jelly-like structure (brain) and keep it in my healthy calcium rich helmet (skull)...

Oh ya besides the fuss and buzz of how hectic and stressful my life in my study week.. i still get the time to watch American idol.. yea.. wat the hack am i doing??? its only 2 hours per week.. human need some rest ba... i just so love this year's american idol.. i think they set a really high bench mark for the coming years. They are all so talented that i couldn't imagine how its goona be like when it comes down to only the top 3.. I wonder who...

For last week.. the top 7 performed ; Adam, Danny, Kris, Anoop, Allison, Lil and Matt... For me last week's performances were just so-so .. i prefered last two weeks especially when Adam shockingly amazed the judges with "Mad World". I love the song so much and i think i began to fancy Adam more after that incredible performance. As for last week's elimination, Matt was saved by the judges. Oh yea.. as usual expected becoz it would be the last opportunity for the judges to save anyone.. anyway... this week I am looking forward to see who to go.. and this means two contestants to go. haha.. I am betting my foot ... nono both of my feet on adam, danny and kris. See u guys in the top 3 ... unless of course... the unexpected happens...

I just had a SUSHI KING feast for my dinner ( coz their r having a promotion and thx to my house mate for the invites :) .. tummy full with salmons swimming in my stomach finding their way out.. : ) ( mind me i am grosss...yeww..)

Ok.. my head spinning again.. having this weird vertigo since.. the day the heatwave crash on Kuching town.. haha... back to studies bobYe!

-Dizzy bizzy Ivy-

2009-04-10T06:28:00.000-07:00

-Get ready, Get set, GO.... ! .....oooppss.. burn out of OIL !!

Just finish my surgerry posting.. am here i am.. lazying around in a saturday afternoon without books that have medical terms on it.. I needed a few days break before the marathon of studying begans for my finals. I need to recharge my strength, pick up my interest of studying and building a crystal clear mind.

Oh.. and i realize something! My blog .... is alwiz full of my nagging, bragging and complaints. Haha.. Sorreee... but i just have no place to pour my unsatisfactory feelings or complaints... only to somewhere that people would not be harm.. like in here! ; ) Speaking of my blog, i plan to change it to a better theme.. like more of discussion of life, things, latest gossip and all.. but this has to wait till i finish my finals. ; )

Just yesterday, when i have nothing to do but to watch a movie, i choose TWLIGHT which i long to watch but never got the chance , either i was too busy or the DVD is unclear.. Well, finally i got my chance! I watch it yesterday. And guess wat? I finally became the late-onset fan of twilight series. Oh gosh, the next thing u know.. i began googling up the ebooks. I started off by reading NEW MOON, and i was so engrossingly magnetted to the creative description of every gesture and move of the story , that certain parts of it made my tears tricked down unconsciously. Oh.. no! i could already be addicted at this time , not when my exam is just 3 weeks down the line. sigh.. an addiction to combat now *_*

Neeway, i truly recommend to all romance lovers, do make a trip to the nearest bookstore to grab a copy...no no ...5 complete series of twilight! ; )

( thats my plan after exammm.... )

Ok.. nothing much for the day to "COMPLAINED".. except for the tremedous irritable hot and humid weather this afternoon... which coz my head to spin like a top, partially compromising my reading speed. Isshhh...

-nerdy IVY soon to be-

(duration : 3 weeks)

2009-04-04T00:09:00.000-07:00

-Exam Triad-

Yes, exam is just next one day. Gosh.. been having my exam syndrome lately. This comprises of :

1) Palpitation --> insomnia

2) Black dark eye-bags

3) Irritable -- > due to insufficient time

Yes.. i need lots of luck this time. Plz.. save me from bad lucks in exam. I hope my brain don't go jam jam this time.. Finger crossed 90 degrees.. haha... chao!

-intensed Ivy-

2009-03-21T08:35:00.000-07:00

A bad day to end the weekend...

Yes.. i must complain and brag about today. I've been sitting on my desk since morning , typing my case-writeup and only to know.. i have 2 more to go. IT just won't stop. Its like never-ending story. It not like i wanna write alot, or put in my whole knowledge into it and produce the best case-writeup... no no no.. why has it not end yet. SIgh.. i plan to clear my big nuisance burden so that i can really focus on my coming exam which is only 2 weeks away.. RGhhhh.. its just such a lousy day to waste on CWU.. and one thing ; i develop this wrist and medial ulnar side pain. I suspect it is a radicular pain, originated from some compression of my ulnar nerve secondary to typing too long.. elbows on the table! ish aiks ... now its really real PAIN in my ass.. seriously.. oooo.. next thing i'll be expecting is carpel tunnel syndrome.. damm.. median nerve soon to go.. oh well.. i just hope time is endless for this moment..

I began understanding more on TIME. TIME is universal ; poor, rich, boy, girl, famous, sick, healthy all... have the equal time to spend (exception t0 people with impending death ahead which then reminds me of the late Randy Pausch "Last Lecture" that i was reading lately - a recommendation to the book and video). However, the way to spend the time is the factor to differentiate between us all.. I have to admit, despite me aknowledging myself that i did not procrastinate.. the fact that i am still not hardworking makes me, relatively a procrastinator indeed. Thats why i am faced with 2 case writeup at the end of this 2 weeks before exam. Yes.. punch me, kick me, slap me, i am still procrastinating. Who to be blamed, the internet?? my computer?? the timetable?? my tiredness?? watever u call it.. IT ME!

well.. i just need to finish this CWU now! thx for listening to my bragging.. whoever u r... :)

-miserable tired girl, ivy-

2009-03-17T01:39:00.000-07:00

-A rainy day -

So much in my mind, so little time to consolidate, so many more stuff to take in.. where shud i start... or when will it end (hope not to end so soon)?? I wish time is not my enemy, but a friend. I did not procasticate this time, but i feel tired not to procasticate... I find ways to rationalize my thoughts but it never was a good reason to anything that i did wrong or regretted ... 3 more weeks, and another 3 more weeks... I think i got to think of an effective way to get thru this rainy day... where shud i go from here???

- mind-boggling ivy-

2009-03-08T06:07:00.000-07:00

Proudly present to you --> "Ah Pek Yong" ..

Isn't he an adorable (cute but ugly) creature ?

with a botak head... keke

Guess what?? I can make him grow his hair...
well.. stay tune for a few days and see
how an ugly creature with botak head can turn into a mature cute punky hair fella.. :)
I hope i manage to grow his hair well...
After my experience with fish and even turtle which all of them died on my hands..
I am sure this fella definitely would not die on my hands..
I hope so .. *_*
Check him in for the next few days!

- hopeful ivy-

2009-03-04T07:28:00.000-08:00

A picture is worth a thousand words - *mutism*

My 6.25th birthday Cake - tiramisu my fav !!!

A pic before i blow my 6th candle ( still young :)

Thanks to all my frens for the bbday celebration..

Mr Fann presenting the present to me O_O

Lovely pic with my housemates

GOing to miss those moments

Yong Mek Mek & me

Dinner bbday at THE CHEF - western style!

Sorry, this post has only few written words

As u can see, those pics convey what i have to say

Pictures are definately worth more than a thousand zillion words

for a lazy person like me @_@

Thx to all my wonderful frens for the wishes

Thx to all my lovely coursemates for the celebration

Thx to my increadible amazing housemates for everything!

Thx to darl for being at my side all the time!

Nitey~

- 6.25 year old IVY-

2009-02-21T06:23:00.000-08:00

LAME post beware!!! -Unproductive Weekend!!

Well.. there is something i wanna fuss about.. me being unproductive this week.. sign.. i sleep a lot.. i play alot.. i listen to music a lot.. and my whole task is piling up.. just like pancakes.. tsk tsk tsk...

anyhow here is some boring, lame pics of me this week....

My messy hair... gosh need to do something after the exam..

Bitting my nails..

Boring....
Hai.....
trying to Study..
Gosh... going crazy..
don't worry... i am ok...just stress for not being able to study...Now.. another stressful fella... hehe.. very infectious..

Ok..thats better... both recovered...
Ok bye bye!!! going back to the reality..

- psycho IVY-

2009-02-14T19:50:00.000-08:00

It was not good.... but it was more of a GREAT!

despite all the stress from my ortho exam and coming finals, life's merciful enough to fit the time perfectly for a stress-relief mini celebration of V day and bbday. My exam finished rite at the spot when i needed it the most ; HIS bbday + Vday. Well, not much of a preparation but i managed to invite most of our coursemates to celebrate this occasion when the clock strike 12 am at 14 Feb 2009. Tot my plan would work but somehow somewhere HE could alwiz figure it out... Anyhow, i hope u enjoyed the mini surprise , dear!

Well , he had his day but i had mine the next day. hehe... I got a few surprises by him. He got me something that he reluctant to get me all this while coz he said he wanted the best for me.. anyhow he still got it for me!!! Its still the best dear!!!

This year VDay dinner was just out of my random thoughts. We started looking for restaurant as we din book. Lucky , we tot of Jap food and we were near the Jap restaurant in crown plaza. SO there goes.... My fav WASABI!!! hehe.. dinner was awesome. The surrounding was truly romantic and fitted the theme. They even gave out roses.. and tables were decorated with a small candle light torching the romantic atmosphere. I can smell the love in the air but i was more occupied with the fresh smell and taste of sashimi ;) love jap food ... thx dear for the wonderful dinner!!! how bout next year?? "_"

Mr Pig is having his sashimi

Miss Small Eye having her fav Jap meal..

okie.. no mood to write much as i have lots of thing ahead to settle. keke... dun wanna be last minute person again.. i hope >_<

HAPPY V DAY my family & frens!!! miss u...

- in love IVY-

2009-02-05T01:40:00.000-08:00

-Another MIRACLE......phew!!!! -

I am so glad i was given another chance to pursue what i desire. I will work hard and promise not to PROCASTINATE again. finals is coming... so guess my blog here will "hang" for a while... so guys wish me luck!!! will update if i have free time... *_*

- relieved IVY -

2009-01-23T00:23:00.001-08:00

Penang , here i come!!!

Alasssssssssss.........time to fly. Just a few more hours and i will be resting on my cozy lumpy Penang made bed.. :)) Wish you guys happy chinese OX year!!! see ya ..

- sleep deprived IVY-

2009-01-17T21:48:00.000-08:00

-Emo remarks -

Nothing much to say apart from my coming psychiatric exams due this coming thurs. I am manically staying up late trying to study (but failed as a result from poor concentration and attention) with the next morning wake-up depressive mood going to school. Psychomotor agitation and irritability commenced throughout the day leaving me with my energy drained out resulting in a blunted affect and mutism at the end of the day. I hate to say this but my hallucination of CNY celebration and delusion of receiving many angpow $$$ (able to grab 10 MNG clothes) is obessively occupying my preception and thoughts. My compulsive action of enjoying (even tho exam is coming) is way out of control . The only therapy i badly need is a temporary abstinence from an exam state. ... I longed for my holidays ... :(

- emo IVY in a manic state-

2009-01-09T07:49:00.000-08:00

GIRL's DILEMMA

Have u ever encounter when an up most important event is approaching, you ran out of ideas on what to wear for the event, how to manipulate ur hair and how to look good and young... This is D fickle minded problem that i alwiz encounter ... which alwiz result in undesired outcome from it...

Well, currently after my hectic exam and post-exam stress... i turn myself to this problem --> preparation for chinese new year celebration. The first thing that popped into my mind was how would my hair be like??? Currently i have straight brownish dull-looking shoulder length hair which coupled with a thin , alopecic looking fringe that annoyed both my visual fields. So.. any great touch up ideas??? I was hoping to get my hair dyed or curl.. but my hair is too short for that account especially the curling thingy... so i guess a simple hair trim will do.. but wait.. what hair style now.. i've tried rihanna's short bob style, cleopetra wanna-be style, .. and now wat... britney's shaving bald style eh??? No way!!! since i am left with no ideas... let the stylist decide!!!

Second issue here is bout clothes clothes clothes.. what shud i wear for CNY??? a bright red sexy curve cheongsam...??? i wish Kuching sold more cheongsams which fits me... to no avail.. i fail to find the Miss Right after so many years on the road... anyway... i leave my choice of clothes to the MNG and Padini department since they are having tremendous earthquake sales now...

oh well.. really looking forward for this coming CNY. but then another part of me is lurking around the post-exam stress which i fear might spoilt the CNY mood.. well.. before i forget i like to wish all my frens a happy chinese "cow" year!!! Mooooooo..... enjoy ur hols!!!

-ivy- the grumpy lame girl as alwiz :)

2009-01-08T07:54:00.000-08:00

PRE-RESOLUTION CONFESSION

Aiks.. a bit too late to welcome the year 2009 in my blog. Its already the 8th day of this new year. Sorry guys.. coz i was having my exam. Just finished today- as usual postexam syndrome : )

In order to welcome this brand new year, i would just like to share some recollection of events or confession of problems that occur last year in my life.

Life was pretty smooth in the year of rat except for some unforeseen events :

1.celebrated my 6th bbday
- For the first time with my darl and my coursemates.

2. went to 4 different posting rotations
- traveled to two places in Sarawak for my postings

3. went to Taiwan for my elective postings

4. procrastination getting worse
- every time in a last minute preparation for exam

5. not growing fatter
- some people say i am too thin.. i shud get fat this year!!!

6. looking old (for sure) and mature (doubt it :)

7. bilateral round big swollen black eye bags
- secondary to sleeping very late at night
8. cut my hair short
- after such a long time ...since primary school

9. memory getting lousier
- pre-senile dementia i guess...

10. addicted to internet / tvb series

Oh well.. the list keep coming when i recollected my thoughts. Anyway.. this is important as one hope to change to the better.

This year resolutions are:

1. TO STOP PROCRASTINATION
2. TO STOP PROCRASTINATION
3. TO STOP PROCRASTINATION

hehe.. sounded like a drug addict or alcohol dependency problem.

For this year, the main resolution to hope for is to stop procrastination. Its time for me to learn from this exam, and turn into a big fresh greenly leaf. I would organized myself well and not let external factors or stimuli to impair my determination.

ultimately is to improve my personality and be confident with myself.

This new year celebration was not a memorable one as i had to spend it with some wise men , namely ; Davidson, Talley, McCleod and etc. (basically with my dear medical books as i will be having my exam)

All in all.. time flies really fast and hereby, wish u guys a happy belated 2009 new year.

Hopefully time goes, life grows!

- Ivy lim-

2008-12-11T08:32:00.000-08:00

-SERENDIPITY -

i just wonder why i din come across such beautiful word.. i came to know this meaningful word only from one of tvb latest hot drama 'gem of life'. And i realized my life is exactly potrayed by just one word S-E-R-E-N-D-I-P-I-T-Y. What it exactly means is that the ability to make happy discoveries by accident. The word was coined by Horace Walpole 1754, after the fairy tale ‘The Three Princes of Serendip’. Serendip is an archaic name for Sri Lanka.

By just admiring the meaning of the word, my consciousness faded into my past, rewinding every important agenda that happens in my life and began to discover the beautyof my life that was portrayed by this divine word i shall say.

Lets just take an example, before coming to the land of hornbills, I never could have imagine that i would step foot on the east of Malaysia. To sound worse, i did not know the existance of Kuching town, and i tot it was all jungle , rivers and CROCODILES in Sarawak. Anyway, when i landed on this place, i found many happy surprises that are now part and parcel of my life
1. my darl
2. my wonderful housemates
3. my helpful coursemates
4. Kuching cleanliness and safety (relatively to penang of course)
5. Many green trees around (seldom to see in pg)
6. Clear blue sky with fluffy clouds during the evening
7. Got my old troublesome "junk" for a cheap price
8. Got a nice house to stay
9. Got my first taste of Sarawakians' proud product "Kolo mee"
10. ................ the list keeps going..

So u see... life is really unpredictable. No doubt one will not alwiz stumble upon happy discoveries... but if u do... make sure u understand the meaning of it.. and appreciate the things that u discover...

well.. the meaning is yet for u to appreciate!... i am so tired.. I actually continued this piece of writing one month apart. Anyway i hope u guys understand what i mean.. ; )

tata

-ivy-

2008-12-08T01:59:00.000-08:00

Love story for a vampire?? hmm.. sounds... sexy yea?? i've watched d trailer and comments from other frens who watched the movie.. some initially hated it , began to like it.. and some like it , began to like it even more.. hmm.. sounded like the kinda movie a gal wish to watch ... but then again.. will this movie satisfy my logical brain that i used it daily to count my maths and understand my pathophysiology.. Oh well.. i think i shall give it a try this weekend.. just to see how can a 106 year old vampire fall in -love... it that so lame.. =)

-ivylim-

2008-12-08T01:38:00.000-08:00

such a lousy and short hols.. =( .. din go ward for the past .... 3 days.. sigh... guilty again.. but at least stayed home to read my books... OH my CWU.. lame lame lame... tomorrow need go hunting for case then!!! with my hectic clinic in the afternoon... i wonder time will allow me to... lame lame lame ... bye!

-ivy . d lame gal -

2008-12-06T23:15:00.000-08:00

Hi.. procastinated the whole Sat.. sigh.. the guilt feeling slowly 'budded' out from my mind.. it slowly tinged my feeling turning it into the fear of failing ... i need to do something now.. STOP PROCASTINATING!!! time to open ur books , JEAN! but first need to entertaint my brain to a resting state ---- go for a nap first *_* ... by all means.. i need to finish wat i suppose to read.. TODAY!!! rughhhh....

-ivylim-

2008-12-05T18:49:00.000-08:00

Today is a Saturday morning. What am i doing now.. blogging?? Shud i be in bed , continuing me beauty sleep?? As a matter of fact, i was woken up by the landlord of my house who alwiz comes eagerly each month to collect our rent. When each month falls in, it would mean sacrificing my shopping allowance, which mean sacrificing my beloved blouse & shoes!!! - just nozzing around -

anyway, i feel terrible today. My procastinating side of me is trying to pull me back into the "dangerous" hole. The hole where is filled with laziness, care-free life and sleepy syndromes. How i wish i could close the hole for this 6 months until my final ends. Why am i so weak in overcoming the temptation of enjoyment?? I've already abandon my scheduled chapters to study, as usual. How sad, how bad could it be (since medicine posting is such a stressful and vast field to master), how mad am i.. I just wish, someone who just crack open my head and pull off the limbic system ( is that responsible for feelings?? .. thrown my neuroanatomy into the drain de ..Arghh.. )..

Oh jean.. u alwiz complained so much.. i guess this is me... the grumpy old grandma , Jean. What can i do to stop procastinating.. i dun wan to end up regretting when the exam is around the corner. I love medicine so much.. but interest ain't such a strong magnet to pull me out from the "euphoric" hole ; the hole where i shud say all lazy-bumps are lying comfortably.

Argg.. get something to work out.. mayb some shopping will do?? *_*

- ivy lim-

2008-09-18T08:19:00.000-07:00

Sitting on my studying table, looking at the thick pages of the obstetric textbook that i need to cover, my determination to read was swapped away instantly. What interest me more was my beloved cozy lumpy bed. Why does this happen everynight... why are my squeeky eye felt so tired each nite.. was it bcoz of my lighting in my room.. or was my interest in studying had swayed away ever since next week will b the start of my hols. I hav no idea. I wanted to read, to finish off my procastinated assigned chapters .. but each day .. every excuse was entertained.

To avoid all this fuzz and guilt , i turn myself to the internet. Hoping to gain the latest issue or news, i ended up myself being addicted to the tvb drama , Moonlight resonance. Now as a an avid addict fan, i was troubled each night by each episode endings - hoping to know the story for the next episode. But honestly, tvb had managed to capture the heart of the audience creatively and i admire them for that.

well.. life's just so dynamically beautiful. Ever since i came to fifth year, i began to see the light of a doctor. Began to graps the principles of life or precisely, a doctor's life. Its dedication and love towards the responsibility. I wonder if i can ever fully own those values in future.. and react appropriately is something i learn which is very useful.

For now, there are a lot of things that i would love to do , but unable to make it happen. I feel that i am lost, and do not know where to start from. i guess i am still playing the game of life. time will tell.. what shud happen and why...

i still love life to the max!!! :) esp hols just around the corner... and me being a procastinator..

-ivylim-

2006-10-27T07:56:00.000-07:00

A New Beginning!

Everyone is blogging nowadays. Wow! and i am just a late comer huh? =) anyhow. I really don't have the determination to jot down every tiny little bits of info everyday. Sorry. But i will try tho.. wat ever big changes in my life i definately would live a footpint here.. right here at my only blogger. Ooops.. actually i hav more then one blog but all r not in an active state ..mind me keke.. =)

To start off, i'm going back this sunday. Yea. its already over.. my hols.. how sad! just a week.. and PUP! its gone like a wind. So fast and furious! Argghh.. i hate when its time to pack my bag and shoo shoo.. back to the place i dread the most ( i dun hate that much.. but as compared to my hometown.. of course its so dreadful ).. However one thing that keep me going.. is the knowledge that i wan to acquire.. i wan to be knowledgable.. i wan to be a knowledgeable doctor.. i wan to know everything.. but hey... i'm quite lazy! thats the problem.. sigh! everything does not seem to run so smoothy.. but anyhow.. just enjoy the process.. the outcome --> never think about it! Life's full of surprises.. u may stumble upon a bad surprise.. but hey! like i say nothing is smooth going.. just know how to overcome it. thats it!.. but as long as u enjoy doing it and u do it correctly.. u sure to get a good surprise *@^

okie.. time to sleep.. sleeping rather early this few days.. to catch up my beauty sleep i guess..hehe..time to bed! adiaus!

love,
ivy lim